Monday, November 28, 2011

The lovely dogs

Just briefly reporting that I am lying in bed, at the bottom of what I'm pretty sure is known as a "dog pile" and am feeling calm and mostly OK for the first time in several days. My blood sugar is suddenly going crazy high again for no reason I can figure out, and my mood took a nose dive also very suddenly so I'm back on meds - a new one this time - which is causing all kinds of weird nervous energy and intense hunger combined with a complete and utter aversion to food of any kind ... A strange combination of effects. The upshot being that I'm feeling really odd physically, and so of course decided to come here to document it. Although! I also have started a little therapy again and she agrees with me that this practice of journaling my anxious and upset emotions seems to have played itself out for me, at least for now. I've been using more moving meditations lately and that has been feeling like just what I need. There's also gratitude journaling, food blogging, art diaries and other ways of sharing my path with the world. Maybe later. Right now I just wanted to give thanks for the dog pile and make a note of the date. I'm hoping my physical state will iron itself out before too long .... I miss being able to eat and sleep normally!